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Summary: Everyone gives Rodney something.

Categories: Slash Pairings > McKay/Zelenka, Slash Pairings > Beckett/McKay, Slash Pairings > McKay/Sheppard, Slash Pairings > McKay/Other
Characters: Carson Beckett
Genres: Angst, Character Study, Established Relationship
Warnings: None
Chapters: 1 [Table of Contents]
Series: None

Word count: 526; Completed: Yes
Updated: 23 Nov 2008; Published: 17 Nov 2008

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Carson knows. Christ, Carson knows.

Oh, it's not Rodney's fault. It never is, and it never will be. After all, everyone else, even if they occasionally get grudging respect, is inferior in intellect. They don't see the world like Rodney does. They can't.

They don't understand that Rodney is the one who has to save them, time and time again. It's always him who comes up with the solution. He can think laterally, mind spinning off on so many tangents that people can only follow his logic in hindsight.

So Rodney needs things – he needs more than one person can give him.

Radek's closest to keeping up to him. He's intelligent and can finish Rodney's sentences, but sometimes they don't even need that. They communicate in unspoken words, nearly talking telepathically. Even though Radek swears and mutters in Czech whenever Rodney's being particularly obnoxious, there's real affection there. It's Radek who'll put up with Rodney's crazy ideas, help him create whatever crazy idea he's dreamed up. Radek's more of an equal than most people on Atlantis, at least intellectually.

John doesn't let Rodney get away with anything. Sure, he's technically Rodney's superior, but that little detail doesn't seem to have ever stopped Rodney from arguing and bickering with his decisions. But it's John who Rodney trusts to keep him alive. John makes Rodney feel alive, whether it's when they're running from the Wraith or when they're back on Atlantis and Rodney's bored of repeating the same actions and words day after day.

Then there was Katie, of course. Somehow, Rodney had gotten out of the mess that was his double date with Carson and Laura, and Katie had let him in. She gives him a bit of normality, without any of the demands that the others placed on him. Probably because she never saw the real Rodney, the one who would shout and scream and nearly get people killed out of his own obstinacy. No, Katie allows Rodney to pretend to be a normal man. It's all a fašade, but it's one Rodney can relax in.

And Carson – Carson himself gives Rodney stability and some measure of respectability. There's more than them, and all of them know that they're Rodney's dirty little secret, and yet they look at Carson as though he's the one to be pitied. They don't know about each other, though. Carson and Rodney are the only ones to know that Rodney is sleeping with half of the senior staff on Atlantis.

Rodney comes in, after shagging Radek in the lab or being fucked by John offworld, shuffles into Carson's room and bed and confesses his sins with wide apologetic eyes. But he never offers to stop, and Carson never asks him to. Carson hates Rodney, and he hates himself. He hates the thought that that is what he means to Rodney. Absolution and unconditional love, a guaranteed safe haven even if all the others turn on him.