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Published: 15 Oct 2015 Updated: 05 Nov 2016
Story Notes:This story is being moved into a new format to protect my anonymity from Google searches.

Credits for inspiration:
-A story I read once about John and Rodney fucking a lot in Antarctica. (details are different but the frenzy of activity is similar. Sorry I don't remember who wrote it, it was years ago)
-A story that featured Vegas John in an Aurora pod. Details are different, but I loved that AU Rodney kept going in to 'rescue' John. "Highway to Nowhere' by Madison.
-Finally, a story completely different than mine, but so epic in scope that it made me want to write something as grand. 'In the City of Seven Walls' by Auburn
-Also probably a lot more. I've read so many McShep stories over the years, I think there is a bit of inspiration from everyone. Somehow, it all coalesced in my mind until I had to write something myself and get it all out.

1. ANTARCTICA by Grey Gamin [ - ] (16 words)

Published: 15 Oct 2015 Updated: 05 Nov 2016

2. HOME by Grey Gamin [ - ] (16 words)
This story is being moved into a new format to protect my anonymity from Google searches.
Published: 19 Oct 2015 Updated: 05 Nov 2016

3. MOMEMTO MORI by Grey Gamin [ - ] (23524 words)
Spans Season 1: Episode 14-20, Season 2: Episode 1

Rodney makes his move... the aftermath is messy.

Published: 19 Oct 2015 Updated: 08 Dec 2015

4. MILKY WAY by Grey Gamin [ - ] (15383 words)
Takes place during Season 2: episodes 2-5

Rodney and John are getting closer again, but then John takes things too far, taunting him and pinning down to the couch. Why does John always act so intimate when he obviously doesn't mean anything by it.
He doesn't mean anything by it, does he?

Published: 19 Oct 2015 Updated: 20 Nov 2015

5. TRUST by Grey Gamin [ - ] (17654 words)
Takes place during Season 2: episodes 6-11
WARNING: Dubious consent (Not exactly non/con but sort of)

Trust can be such a fragile thing... the trust one has in one's self, the trust one learns to have with another person.
The intimacy of it can be a chaotic dance, breaking apart when it is most needed.
And yet sometimes the strangest of circumstances can bring two people closer. Even, say, a drug induced blowjob?

Published: 19 Oct 2015 Updated: 20 Nov 2015

6. DOMINION by Grey Gamin [ - ] (8743 words)
Takes place during Season 2: Episodes 12-18

John is done pushing Rodney away. Now he just has to win back his friendship. Maybe he will even open up about a bit about his past...

Published: 19 Oct 2015 Updated: 08 Dec 2015

7. ALLIES & FRIENDS by Grey Gamin [ - ] (21589 words)
Takes places in Season 2: episodes 19 & 20, Season 3 episodes 1-4

Rodney and John continue to try to find their new footing with each other. But it is confusing, with so much left unsaid, so much unacknowledged between them...
But circumstances cause everyone on the team to draw closer.
Especially John and Rodney.

Published: 22 Oct 2015 Updated: 23 Nov 2015

8. DEMONS by Grey Gamin [ - ] (12448 words)
Takes place during Season 3: episodes 5-8
WARNING! Chapter contains NON/CON flashback scene (Sort of)

Rodney's tortured past returns with a vengeance, now his sanity feels like it is hanging by a thread.

Published: 25 Oct 2015 Updated: 23 Nov 2015

9. GHOSTS by Grey Gamin [ - ] (24142 words)
Story takes place during Season 3: episodes 9-14

When the ghosts of the past come back to haunt him, there is no one John can turn to but Rodney. Somehow, he had known Rodney would be kind to him if he knew how much pain he was in... .

Published: 30 Oct 2015 Updated: 09 Jan 2016

10. FAREWELL by Grey Gamin [ - ] (17038 words)
Takes places during Season 3: episodes 15-17

It it the end of an era, the end of so many things. John's heart is already breaking when a final loss takes a heavy toll.
But, Rodney needs him more than ever. A dark tragedy gives John and Rodney a reason to comfort each other in ways they normally can't.

Published: 30 Oct 2015 Updated: 28 Nov 2015

11. DRIFTING by Grey Gamin [ - ] (10707 words)
Takes place during Season 3: episodes 18- 20 and Season 4: episodes 1 & 2

Ronan is starting to see John and Rodney's relationship in a whole new light... If only he could get John to open up and be honest about it.
Already consumed by guilt and despair, John is wracked by yet another loss.

Published: 31 Oct 2015 Updated: 13 May 2016

12. DREAMS by Grey Gamin [ - ] (15579 words)
Takes places during Season 4: episodes 3-8

John tries to get over his feelings for Rodney, but he can't Rodney out of mind. Ronan finally understands why John won't trust him with the truth.

Published: 31 Oct 2015 Updated: 27 May 2016

13. THIS CHANGES EVERYTHING by Grey Gamin [ - ] (15707 words)
Takes place during Season 4: episodes 9-13

Just as John gets a glimpse of what could have been with Rodney, his world comes crashing down. It looks like he is going to lose Rodney forever and he just can't face it alone.
If Ronan meant what he said, if he really could talk to him without anything changing... Maybe John doesn't have to keep this terrible secret anymore.

Published: 02 Nov 2015 Updated: 08 Dec 2015

14. CULMINATION by Grey Gamin [ - ] (23759 words)
Takes place in Season 4: episodes 14-19

John lets go of his past, his fears about being attracted to another man. And now, with Katie out of the picture, he finally has a chance to make his move.

Published: 02 Nov 2015 Updated: 02 Jun 2016

15. THE FUTURE by Grey Gamin [ - ] (12159 words)
Takes places during Season 4: Episode 20 & Season 5: Episodes 1-2

Rodney doesn't want to press the issue and have John get angry like he did before. He was told in no uncertain terms, NEVER to go there again. And he hasn't.
It's just, it really seemed like John was about to go there. John had almost kissed him for Christ's sake. How the hell is Rodney supposed to interpret those kinds of mixed messages?

Published: 03 Nov 2015 Updated: 23 Dec 2015

16. RESURRECTION by Grey Gamin [ - ] (13238 words)
Takes place during Season 5: episodes 3-8

Bringing his friends back from the brink of death is easier than trying to bring himself back. There was a reason John had stayed numb all these years.
But he has to believe there was a point to sorting out all this emotional wreckage. A point to making to other side.
Even if Rodney isn't there waiting for him.

Published: 03 Nov 2015 Updated: 25 Dec 2015

17. RIVALRY by Grey Gamin [ - ] (10301 words)
Takes place during Season 5: Episodes 9-14

Everything is a competition... The question is, who win in the end?

Rodney is the only reason John came out here. He had wanted something more with him, more than he knew how to articulate at the time.
That is what made him decide to join the expedition.
Of course then he had changed his mind, terrified of his own feelings and the knowledge that he hurt Rodney somehow. But General O'Neill hadn't let him back out and he had ended up following Rodney to a distant galaxy.

And in his own bumbling, inelegant, and self-deluded way, he had tried to draw Rodney into his world; the way Rodney had pulled John into his.

Published: 04 Nov 2015 Updated: 20 Nov 2015

18. GONE by Grey Gamin [ - ] (15726 words)
Takes place during Season 5: episodes 15-20

John's lip trembles as he whispers to himself, "So long, Rodney."

Published: 04 Nov 2015 Updated: 20 Nov 2015

19. TRAUMA Part 1 by Grey Gamin [ - ] (4346 words)
Takes place after the end of the series.

Rodney gives up everything in pursuit of John.

Published: 08 Nov 2015 Updated: 20 Nov 2015

20. TRAUMA Part 2 by Grey Gamin [ - ] (9269 words)
Takes place after the end of the series.
WARNING!! Explicit violence! NON/CON! HURT/COMFORT. May squick.

They cling to each other desperately, trying not to drown in fears of what tomorrow will bring, trying to believe that they won't be parted again.

Published: 05 Nov 2015 Updated: 15 May 2016

21. COME BACK TO ME by Grey Gamin [ - ] (21174 words)
Takes place after the end of the series.

John tenderly and lovingly nurses Rodney back to health.

Published: 05 Nov 2015 Updated: 16 May 2016

22. REDEMPTION by Grey Gamin [ - ] (17872 words)
Takes place after the end of the series.

"So, no redemption then?"
"I think there's redemption." Rodney squeezes John's hand.
"I'm such an idio-"
Rodney leans up and kisses the words away.
"Mmm, mmm. That's so... Mmm." John places his hands on the sides of Rodney's face, "Mmm, God, I love you, Mere."
"Finally" Rodney murmurs with his lips on John's mouth.

Published: 06 Nov 2015 Updated: 16 May 2016

23. CONNECTION by Grey Gamin [ - ] (24289 words)
Takes place after the end of the series.

John seeks vengeance against the men who hurt Rodney. And when he returns, there is sex to be had.
Finally!

Published: 06 Nov 2015 Updated: 16 May 2016

24. SAN FRANCISCO by Grey Gamin [ - ] (19204 words)
Takes place after the end of the series.

John and Rodney delight in their newfound love.

Published: 06 Nov 2015 Updated: 16 May 2016

25. DECEPTION by Grey Gamin [ - ] (18766 words)
Takes place after the end of the series.

The team rallies together to protect John and Rodney from being exposed.
But the solution has a darker side effect, one that takes a toll on them both. John will think of something, he can't lose Rodney now.

Published: 07 Nov 2015 Updated: 17 May 2016

26. SOLARIS by Grey Gamin [ - ] (25340 words)
Takes place after the end of the series.

How can John keep the world from destroying he and Rodney's forbidden love?
He thinks he has found a way.

SPOILER ALERT: There is lots of sex to be had.

Published: 08 Nov 2015 Updated: 19 May 2016

27. RETURN by Grey Gamin [ - ] (17980 words)
Takes place after the end of the Series.

When the team returns to Pegasus, they find an expected foe.
One that may take John from Rodney forever.

Published: 08 Nov 2015 Updated: 26 May 2016

28. SOLITARY MAN by Grey Gamin [ - ] (27687 words)
Takes place after the end of the series.

When John and Rodney travel to another dimension, they find very different versions of themselves in Vegas.
A little help from the consciousness sharing stones gives them all a new perspective on life -and even the fate of the galaxy.

Published: 09 Nov 2015 Updated: 27 May 2016

29. FAMILY by Grey Gamin [ - ] (26928 words)
Takes place after the end of the series.

Change is in the air for everyone. The repeal of Don't Ask Don't Tell gets off to a rocky start for John and Rodney. A distress call from another dimension brings an unexpected visitor.

Published: 10 Nov 2015 Updated: 29 May 2016

30. THE PAST by Grey Gamin [ - ] (11181 words)
Set after the end of the series

Somehow beginnings are even sweeter than eternity. Beginnings are fragile and precious things. Only in hindsight do they become so indelible, so pivotal to the course of one's life.

Published: 10 Nov 2015 Updated: 30 May 2016