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Antarctica by Majou [NC-17]
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The long and winding saga of John and Rodney's love begins in Antarctica. But it is impossible to say where it ends.



Published: 05 Nov 2016 Updated: 04 Feb 2017
Story Notes:

This story spans the five seasons of the show and many years afterwards


Credits for inspiration:
-A story I read once about John and Rodney fucking a lot in Antarctica. (details are different but the frenzy of activity is similar. Sorry I don't remember who wrote it, it was years ago)
-A story that featured Vegas John in an Aurora pod. Details are different, but I loved that AU Rodney kept going in to 'rescue' John. "Highway to Nowhere' by Madison.
-'In the City of Seven Walls' by Auburn. A story completely different than mine, but so epic in scope that it made me want to write something as grand and long.
-Also probably a lot more. I've read so many McShep stories over the years, I think there is a bit of inspiration from everyone. Somehow, it all coalesced in my mind until I had to write something myself and get it all out.

1. Step 1: Get McKay out of that fleece by Majou [ - ] (2812 words)


Section 1. Antartica: Takes place during the pilot episode 'Rising'

Author's note: This section contains a lot of sex. One scene takes place in a shower. If you like that kind of thing, I posted a piece of McShep art (the two of them in the shower together) that you can view on Deviant Art:
http://greygamin.deviantart.com/art/Rodney-getting-fucked-in-the-shower-by-John-611295171
Published: 05 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

2. Major Sheppard has his way with McKay by Majou [ - ] (3220 words)


Section 1. Antartica: Takes place during the pilot episode 'Rising'

Author's note: This section contains a lot of sex. One scene takes place in a shower. If you like that kind of thing, I posted a piece of McShep art (the two of them in the shower together) that you can view on Deviant Art:
http://greygamin.deviantart.com/art/Rodney-getting-fucked-in-the-shower-by-John-611295171
Published: 05 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

3. Taken in the supply closet by Majou [ - ] (3436 words)


Section 1. Antartica: Takes place during the pilot episode 'Rising'

Author's note: This section contains a lot of sex. One scene takes place in a shower. If you like that kind of thing, I posted a piece of McShep art (the two of them in the shower together) that you can view on Deviant Art:
http://greygamin.deviantart.com/art/Rodney-getting-fucked-in-the-shower-by-John-611295171
Published: 05 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

4. The Last Time by Majou [ - ] (2078 words)


Section 1. Antartica: Takes place during the pilot episode 'Rising'

Author's note: This section contains a lot of sex. One scene takes place in a shower. If you like that kind of thing, I posted a piece of McShep art (the two of them in the shower together) that you can view on Deviant Art:
http://greygamin.deviantart.com/art/Rodney-getting-fucked-in-the-shower-by-John-611295171
Published: 05 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

5. John so has an inner dork by Majou [ - ] (2862 words)

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Section 2. Home: Takes place during Season 1: episodes, 1-13.

Rodney has been drawn into John's orbit... And now, it is where he belongs. It's not Atlantis that feels like home, Rodney realizes, it is John.
John has become his home.
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

5. Why John shot Rodney in the leg by Majou [ - ] (2553 words)

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Section 2. Home: Takes place during Season 1: episodes, 1-13.

Rodney has been drawn into John's orbit... And now, it is where he belongs. It's not Atlantis that feels like home, Rodney realizes, it is John.
John has become his home.
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

5. It's a MYTH that size doesn't matter by Majou [ - ] (2335 words)

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Section 2. Home: Takes place during Season 1: episodes, 1-13.

Rodney has been drawn into John's orbit... And now, it is where he belongs. It's not Atlantis that feels like home, Rodney realizes, it is John.
John has become his home.
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

5. You can call me John when we're off duty by Majou [ - ] (1821 words)

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Section 2. Home: Takes place during Season 1: episodes, 1-13.

Rodney has been drawn into John's orbit... And now, it is where he belongs. It's not Atlantis that feels like home, Rodney realizes, it is John.
John has become his home.
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

5. Flirtatious flying lesson by Majou [ - ] (2621 words)

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Section 2. Home: Takes place during Season 1: episodes, 1-13.

Rodney has been drawn into John's orbit... And now, it is where he belongs. It's not Atlantis that feels like home, Rodney realizes, it is John.
John has become his home.
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

5. A flash of pure desire in John's eyes by Majou [ - ] (1702 words)

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Section 2. Home: Takes place during Season 1: episodes, 1-13.

Rodney has been drawn into John's orbit... And now, it is where he belongs. It's not Atlantis that feels like home, Rodney realizes, it is John.
John has become his home.
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

5. Oh my God- Hes in love with John by Majou [ - ] (2668 words)

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Section 2. Home: Takes place during Season 1: episodes, 1-13.

Rodney has been drawn into John's orbit... And now, it is where he belongs. It's not Atlantis that feels like home, Rodney realizes, it is John.
John has become his home.
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

5. Let the games begin by Majou [ - ] (1609 words)

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Section 2. Home: Takes place during Season 1: episodes, 1-13.

Rodney has been drawn into John's orbit... And now, it is where he belongs. It's not Atlantis that feels like home, Rodney realizes, it is John.
John has become his home.
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

6. Memorizing the feel of John against him by Majou [ - ] (2977 words)

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Section 2. Home: Takes place during Season 1: episodes, 1-13.

Rodney has been drawn into John's orbit... And now, it is where he belongs. It's not Atlantis that feels like home, Rodney realizes, it is John.
John has become his home.
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

14. I can be romantic by Majou [ - ] (1703 words)


Spans Season 1: Episode 14-20, Season 2: Episode 1

Section 3. Memento Mori: Rodney makes his move... the aftermath is messy.


Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

15. It's not like I'm HOLDING BACK on you by Majou [ - ] (2101 words)


Spans Season 1: Episode 14-20, Season 2: Episode 1

Section 3. Memento Mori: Rodney makes his move... the aftermath is messy.


Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

16. He is important to you by Majou [ - ] (2181 words)


Spans Season 1: Episode 14-20, Season 2: Episode 1

Section 3. Memento Mori: Rodney makes his move... the aftermath is messy.


Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

17. I said- Don't- Go there McKay- EVER by Majou [ - ] (2612 words)


Spans Season 1: Episode 14-20, Season 2: Episode 1

Section 3. Memento Mori: Rodney makes his move... the aftermath is messy.


Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

18. John has no right to be possessive by Majou [ - ] (3015 words)


Spans Season 1: Episode 14-20, Season 2: Episode 1

Section 3. Memento Mori: Rodney makes his move... the aftermath is messy.


Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

19. I'm sorry we weren't closer by Majou [ - ] (2450 words)


Spans Season 1: Episode 14-20, Season 2: Episode 1

Section 3. Memento Mori: Rodney makes his move... the aftermath is messy.


Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

20. What if he had let McKay kiss him? by Majou [ - ] (3242 words)


Spans Season 1: Episode 14-20, Season 2: Episode 1

Section 3. Memento Mori: Rodney makes his move... the aftermath is messy.


Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

21. So long Rodney by Majou [ - ] (2452 words)


Spans Season 1: Episode 14-20, Season 2: Episode 1

Section 3. Memento Mori: Rodney makes his move... the aftermath is messy.


Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

22. Train wreck by Majou [ - ] (3939 words)


Spans Season 1: Episode 14-20, Season 2: Episode 1

Section 3. Memento Mori: Rodney makes his move... the aftermath is messy.


Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

23. This is not couch appropriate behavior by Majou [ - ] (3050 words)

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Section 4. Home: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 2-5

Rodney and John are getting closer again, but then John takes things too far, taunting him and pinning down to the couch. Why does John always act so intimate when he obviously doesn't mean anything by it?
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

24. I do have a heart, you know by Majou [ - ] (3596 words)

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Section 4. Home: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 2-5

Rodney and John are getting closer again, but then John takes things too far, taunting him and pinning down to the couch. Why does John always act so intimate when he obviously doesn't mean anything by it?
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

25. Aqua Velva by Majou [ - ] (3041 words)

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Section 4. Home: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 2-5

Rodney and John are getting closer again, but then John takes things too far, taunting him and pinning down to the couch. Why does John always act so intimate when he obviously doesn't mean anything by it?
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

26. Just sayin', I think you could do better by Majou [ - ] (2917 words)

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Section 4. Home: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 2-5

Rodney and John are getting closer again, but then John takes things too far, taunting him and pinning down to the couch. Why does John always act so intimate when he obviously doesn't mean anything by it?
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

27. Still hopelessly in love with John by Majou [ - ] (2865 words)

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Section 4. Home: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 2-5

Rodney and John are getting closer again, but then John takes things too far, taunting him and pinning down to the couch. Why does John always act so intimate when he obviously doesn't mean anything by it?
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

28. John said if he really, really tried-- by Majou [ - ] (1538 words)

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Section 5. Milky Way: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 6-11

Trust can be such a fragile thing... the trust one has in one's self, the trust one learns to have with another person...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

29. What's the matter? Don't TRUST me? by Majou [ - ] (2715 words)

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Section 5. Milky Way: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 6-11

Trust can be such a fragile thing... the trust one has in one's self, the trust one learns to have with another person...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

30. The term is 'rakish' by Majou [ - ] (2547 words)
Section 5. Milky Way: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 6-11

Trust can be such a fragile thing... the trust one has in one's self, the trust one learns to have with another person...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

31. McKay makes John give him what he wants by Majou [ - ] (3815 words)


Section 5. Milky Way: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 6-11

Trust can be such a fragile thing... the trust one has in one's self, the trust one learns to have with another person...
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WARNING: Dubious consent (Not exactly non/con but sort of)


Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

32. Rodney spills the sordid sexual details by Majou [ - ] (3861 words)


Section 5. Milky Way: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 6-11

Trust can be such a fragile thing... the trust one has in one's self, the trust one learns to have with another person...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

33. John can't get over that blowjob by Majou [ - ] (3330 words)


Section 5. Milky Way: Takes place during Season 2: episodes 6-11

Trust can be such a fragile thing... the trust one has in one's self, the trust one learns to have with another person...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

34. Kind of even missed you a little by Majou [ - ] (2059 words)

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Section 6. Dominion: Takes place during Season 2: Episodes 12-18.

John is done pushing Rodney away. Now it is his turn to try to win Rodney back..
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

35. Rodney keeps his distance by Majou [ - ] (2754 words)

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Section 6. Dominion: Takes place during Season 2: Episodes 12-18.

John is done pushing Rodney away. Now it is his turn to try to win Rodney back..
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

36. Buddies by Majou [ - ] (3954 words)

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Section 6. Dominion: Takes place during Season 2: Episodes 12-18.

John is done pushing Rodney away. Now it is his turn to try to win Rodney back..
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

37. Epic Cockblocking by Majou [ - ] (3024 words)

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Section 7. Allies & Friends: Takes places in Season 2: episodes 19 & 20, Season 3 episodes 1-4

Rodney and John continue to try to find their new footing with each other. But it is confusing, with so much left unsaid, so much unacknowledged between them...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

38. Like when I stupidly downloaded porn by Majou [ - ] (2384 words)

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Section 7. Allies & Friends: Takes places in Season 2: episodes 19 & 20, Season 3 episodes 1-4

Rodney and John continue to try to find their new footing with each other. But it is confusing, with so much left unsaid, so much unacknowledged between them...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

39. John's fingers brush Rodney's lips by Majou [ - ] (1903 words)

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Section 7. Allies & Friends: Takes places in Season 2: episodes 19 & 20, Season 3 episodes 1-4

Rodney and John continue to try to find their new footing with each other. But it is confusing, with so much left unsaid, so much unacknowledged between them...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

40. Oh God- John is holding him by Majou [ - ] (1616 words)

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Section 7. Allies & Friends: Takes places in Season 2: episodes 19 & 20, Season 3 episodes 1-4

Rodney and John continue to try to find their new footing with each other. But it is confusing, with so much left unsaid, so much unacknowledged between them...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

41. Pinning Rodney to the wall is John's job by Majou [ - ] (3569 words)

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Section 7. Allies & Friends: Takes places in Season 2: episodes 19 & 20, Season 3 episodes 1-4

Rodney and John continue to try to find their new footing with each other. But it is confusing, with so much left unsaid, so much unacknowledged between them...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

42. You got one -I want one -Even by Majou [ - ] (3298 words)

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Section 7. Allies & Friends: Takes places in Season 2: episodes 19 & 20, Season 3 episodes 1-4

Rodney and John continue to try to find their new footing with each other. But it is confusing, with so much left unsaid, so much unacknowledged between them...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

43. Everyone loves Ronan by Majou [ - ] (2834 words)

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Section 7. Allies & Friends: Takes places in Season 2: episodes 19 & 20, Season 3 episodes 1-4

Rodney and John continue to try to find their new footing with each other. But it is confusing, with so much left unsaid, so much unacknowledged between them...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

44. We're actually-- We're quite close by Majou [ - ] (3129 words)

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Section 7. Allies & Friends: Takes places in Season 2: episodes 19 & 20, Season 3 episodes 1-4

Rodney and John continue to try to find their new footing with each other. But it is confusing, with so much left unsaid, so much unacknowledged between them...
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Published: 09 Nov 2016 Updated: 09 Nov 2016

45. Demons from Rodney's past return by Majou [ - ] (3310 words)

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Section 8. Demons: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 5-8

Rodney's tortured past returns with a vengeance, now his sanity feels like it is hanging by a thread.

WARNING! Chapter contains NON/CON flashback scene (Sort of)
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Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

46. Shoulda known it was too good to be true by Majou [ - ] (2141 words)

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Section 8. Demons: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 5-8

Rodney's tortured past returns with a vengeance, now his sanity feels like it is hanging by a thread.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

47. The lessor model of Meredith McKay by Majou [ - ] (5141 words)

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Section 8. Demons: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 5-8

Rodney's tortured past returns with a vengeance, now his sanity feels like it is hanging by a thread.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

48. John does some damage control by Majou [ - ] (1935 words)

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Section 8. Demons: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 5-8

Rodney's tortured past returns with a vengeance, now his sanity feels like it is hanging by a thread.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

49. Captain Lyle Holland by Majou [ - ] (2442 words)

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Section 9. Ghosts: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 9-14

When the ghosts of the past come back to haunt him, there is no one John can turn to but Rodney. Somehow, he had known Rodney would be kind to him if he knew how much pain he was in...


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

50. The truth about Afghanistan by Majou [ - ] (3745 words)

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Section 9. Ghosts: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 9-14

When the ghosts of the past come back to haunt him, there is no one John can turn to but Rodney. Somehow, he had known Rodney would be kind to him if he knew how much pain he was in...


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

51. There are certain people I miss by Majou [ - ] (2897 words)

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Section 9. Ghosts: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 9-14

When the ghosts of the past come back to haunt him, there is no one John can turn to but Rodney. Somehow, he had known Rodney would be kind to him if he knew how much pain he was in...


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

52. I missed you too Rodney by Majou [ - ] (3124 words)

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Section 9. Ghosts: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 9-14

When the ghosts of the past come back to haunt him, there is no one John can turn to but Rodney. Somehow, he had known Rodney would be kind to him if he knew how much pain he was in...


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

53. He and Rodney have been getting so close by Majou [ - ] (2312 words)

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Section 9. Ghosts: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 9-14

When the ghosts of the past come back to haunt him, there is no one John can turn to but Rodney. Somehow, he had known Rodney would be kind to him if he knew how much pain he was in...


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

54. John was going to find the courage by Majou [ - ] (3535 words)

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Section 9. Ghosts: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 9-14

When the ghosts of the past come back to haunt him, there is no one John can turn to but Rodney. Somehow, he had known Rodney would be kind to him if he knew how much pain he was in...


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

55. I've loved you for some time now by Majou [ - ] (3234 words)

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Section 9. Ghosts: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 9-14

When the ghosts of the past come back to haunt him, there is no one John can turn to but Rodney. Somehow, he had known Rodney would be kind to him if he knew how much pain he was in...


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

56. Paper ring by Majou [ - ] (3043 words)

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Section 9. Ghosts: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 9-14

When the ghosts of the past come back to haunt him, there is no one John can turn to but Rodney. Somehow, he had known Rodney would be kind to him if he knew how much pain he was in...


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

57. I've got a plan, Rodney by Majou [ - ] (3207 words)

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Section 10. Farewell: Takes places during Season 3: episodes 15-17

It is the end of an era, the end of so many things. But then a dark tragedy gives John and Rodney a reason to be close to each other in ways they normally can't.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

58. Irresistible in that orange spacesuit by Majou [ - ] (4338 words)

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Section 10. Farewell: Takes places during Season 3: episodes 15-17

It is the end of an era, the end of so many things. But then a dark tragedy gives John and Rodney a reason to be close to each other in ways they normally can't.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

59. Maybe he doesn't have a heart after all by Majou [ - ] (3778 words)

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Section 10. Farewell: Takes places during Season 3: episodes 15-17

It is the end of an era, the end of so many things. But then a dark tragedy gives John and Rodney a reason to be close to each other in ways they normally can't.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

60. Scotland by Majou [ - ] (2987 words)

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Section 10. Farewell: Takes places during Season 3: episodes 15-17

It is the end of an era, the end of so many things. But then a dark tragedy gives John and Rodney a reason to be close to each other in ways they normally can't.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

61. Do not open until Christmas by Majou [ - ] (2893 words)

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Section 10. Farewell: Takes places during Season 3: episodes 15-17

It is the end of an era, the end of so many things. But then a dark tragedy gives John and Rodney a reason to be close to each other in ways they normally can't.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

62. John's therapy sucks by Majou [ - ] (3829 words)

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Section 11. Drifting: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 18- 20 and Season 4: episodes 1 & 2

Ronan is starting to see John and Rodney's relationship in a whole new light... If only he could get John to open up and be honest about it.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

63. He won't push Rodney away again by Majou [ - ] (3831 words)

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Section 11. Drifting: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 18- 20 and Season 4: episodes 1 & 2

Ronan is starting to see John and Rodney's relationship in a whole new light... If only he could get John to open up and be honest about it.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

64. PENETRATE? by Majou [ - ] (3018 words)

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Section 11. Drifting: Takes place during Season 3: episodes 18- 20 and Season 4: episodes 1 & 2

Ronan is starting to see John and Rodney's relationship in a whole new light... If only he could get John to open up and be honest about it.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

65. Unrequited lust hanging over their heads by Majou [ - ] (3343 words)

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Section 12. Dreams: Takes places during Season 4: episodes 3-8

John tries to get over his feelings for Rodney, but he can't Rodney out of mind. Ronan finally understands why John won't trust him with the truth.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

66. You won't even see it coming by Majou [ - ] (2972 words)

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Section 12. Dreams: Takes places during Season 4: episodes 3-8

John tries to get over his feelings for Rodney, but he can't Rodney out of mind. Ronan finally understands why John won't trust him with the truth.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

67. Losing Rodney is John's worst fear by Majou [ - ] (3093 words)

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Section 12. Dreams: Takes places during Season 4: episodes 3-8

John tries to get over his feelings for Rodney, but he can't Rodney out of mind. Ronan finally understands why John won't trust him with the truth.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

68. Sometimes you just need to get laid by Majou [ - ] (2914 words)

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Section 12. Dreams: Takes places during Season 4: episodes 3-8

John tries to get over his feelings for Rodney, but he can't Rodney out of mind. Ronan finally understands why John won't trust him with the truth.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

69. Ronan discovers why John won't tell him by Majou [ - ] (3642 words)

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Section 12. Dreams: Takes places during Season 4: episodes 3-8

John tries to get over his feelings for Rodney, but he can't Rodney out of mind. Ronan finally understands why John won't trust him with the truth.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

70. Think you're gonna find someone better? by Majou [ - ] (4110 words)

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Section 13. This Changes Everything: Takes place during Season 4: episodes 9-13


Just as John gets a glimpse of what could have been with Rodney, his world comes crashing down.
If Ronan meant what he said, if he really could talk to him without anything changing... Maybe John doesn't have to keep this terrible secret anymore.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

71. This changes everything by Majou [ - ] (2744 words)

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Section 13. This Changes Everything: Takes place during Season 4: episodes 9-13


Just as John gets a glimpse of what could have been with Rodney, his world comes crashing down.
If Ronan meant what he said, if he really could talk to him without anything changing... Maybe John doesn't have to keep this terrible secret anymore.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

72. We're trusting Rodney by Majou [ - ] (2104 words)

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Section 13. This Changes Everything: Takes place during Season 4: episodes 9-13


Just as John gets a glimpse of what could have been with Rodney, his world comes crashing down.
If Ronan meant what he said, if he really could talk to him without anything changing... Maybe John doesn't have to keep this terrible secret anymore.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

73. Why is John in love with this guy again? by Majou [ - ] (2979 words)

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Section 13. This Changes Everything: Takes place during Season 4: episodes 9-13


Just as John gets a glimpse of what could have been with Rodney, his world comes crashing down.
If Ronan meant what he said, if he really could talk to him without anything changing... Maybe John doesn't have to keep this terrible secret anymore.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

74. In desperation, John turns to Ronan by Majou [ - ] (3849 words)

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Section 13. This Changes Everything: Takes place during Season 4: episodes 9-13


Just as John gets a glimpse of what could have been with Rodney, his world comes crashing down.
If Ronan meant what he said, if he really could talk to him without anything changing... Maybe John doesn't have to keep this terrible secret anymore.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

75. Sometimes he makes me cry too by Majou [ - ] (1999 words)

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Section 14. Culmination:Takes place in Season 4: episodes 14-19


John lets go of his past, his fears about being attracted to another man. And now, with Katie out of the picture, he finally has a chance to make his move.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

76. John Sheppard's good looks and charm by Majou [ - ] (3486 words)

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Section 14. Culmination: Takes place in Season 4: episodes 14-19


John lets go of his past, his fears about being attracted to another man. And now, with Katie out of the picture, he finally has a chance to make his move.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

77. It was a mistake coming back by Majou [ - ] (3524 words)

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Section 14. Culmination: Takes place in Season 4: episodes 14-19


John lets go of his past, his fears about being attracted to another man. And now, with Katie out of the picture, he finally has a chance to make his move.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

78. Indifference was the best John expected by Majou [ - ] (2971 words)

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Section 14. Culmination: Takes place in Season 4: episodes 14-19


John lets go of his past, his fears about being attracted to another man. And now, with Katie out of the picture, he finally has a chance to make his move.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

79. No son of mine is a fucking faggot by Majou [ - ] (3596 words)

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Section 14. Culmination: Takes place in Season 4: episodes 14-19


John lets go of his past, his fears about being attracted to another man. And now, with Katie out of the picture, he finally has a chance to make his move.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

80. I think that he loves you too by Majou [ - ] (2031 words)

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Section 14. Culmination: Takes place in Season 4: episodes 14-19


John lets go of his past, his fears about being attracted to another man. And now, with Katie out of the picture, he finally has a chance to make his move.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

81. You haven't been forgotten by Majou [ - ] (2751 words)

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Section 14. Culmination: Takes place in Season 4: episodes 14-19


John lets go of his past, his fears about being attracted to another man. And now, with Katie out of the picture, he finally has a chance to make his move.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

82. John's lips lightly graze Rodney's mouth by Majou [ - ] (3486 words)

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Section 14. Culmination: Takes place in Season 4: episodes 14-19


John lets go of his past, his fears about being attracted to another man. And now, with Katie out of the picture, he finally has a chance to make his move.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

83. Rodney followed him though 48,000 years by Majou [ - ] (2886 words)

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Section 15. The Future: Takes places during Season 4: Episode 20 & Season 5: Episodes 1-2


Rodney doesn't want to press the issue and have John get angry like he did before. He was told in no uncertain terms, NEVER to go there again. And he hasn't.
It's just, it really seemed like John was about to go there. John had almost kissed him for Christ's sake. How the hell is Rodney supposed to interpret those kinds of mixed messages?



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

84. Been a pleasure by Majou [ - ] (3109 words)

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Section 15. The Future: Takes places during Season 4: Episode 20 & Season 5: Episodes 1-2


Rodney doesn't want to press the issue and have John get angry like he did before. He was told in no uncertain terms, NEVER to go there again. And he hasn't.
It's just, it really seemed like John was about to go there. John had almost kissed him for Christ's sake. How the hell is Rodney supposed to interpret those kinds of mixed messages?



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

85. John acts like they didn't almost kiss by Majou [ - ] (3033 words)

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Section 15. The Future: Takes places during Season 4: Episode 20 & Season 5: Episodes 1-2


Rodney doesn't want to press the issue and have John get angry like he did before. He was told in no uncertain terms, NEVER to go there again. And he hasn't.
It's just, it really seemed like John was about to go there. John had almost kissed him for Christ's sake. How the hell is Rodney supposed to interpret those kinds of mixed messages?



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

86. Jennifer can give Rodney what John can't by Majou [ - ] (3253 words)

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Section 15. The Future: Takes places during Season 4: Episode 20 & Season 5: Episodes 1-2


Rodney doesn't want to press the issue and have John get angry like he did before. He was told in no uncertain terms, NEVER to go there again. And he hasn't.
It's just, it really seemed like John was about to go there. John had almost kissed him for Christ's sake. How the hell is Rodney supposed to interpret those kinds of mixed messages?



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

87. I'm not taking a bath with you by Majou [ - ] (2946 words)

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Section 16. Resurrection : Takes place during Season 5: episodes 3-8


Bringing his friends back from the brink of death is easier than trying to bring himself back. There was a reason John had stayed numb all these years.
But he has to believe there was a point to sorting out all this emotional wreckage. A point to making to other side.
Even if Rodney isn't there waiting for him.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

88. He'll always love his repressed soldier by Majou [ - ] (2525 words)

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Section 16. Resurrection : Takes place during Season 5: episodes 3-8


Bringing his friends back from the brink of death is easier than trying to bring himself back. There was a reason John had stayed numb all these years.
But he has to believe there was a point to sorting out all this emotional wreckage. A point to making to other side.
Even if Rodney isn't there waiting for him.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

89. John's never known how to say goodbye by Majou [ - ] (2089 words)

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Section 16. Resurrection : Takes place during Season 5: episodes 3-8


Bringing his friends back from the brink of death is easier than trying to bring himself back. There was a reason John had stayed numb all these years.
But he has to believe there was a point to sorting out all this emotional wreckage. A point to making to other side.
Even if Rodney isn't there waiting for him.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

90. Next of kin by Majou [ - ] (3053 words)

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Section 16. Resurrection : Takes place during Season 5: episodes 3-8


Bringing his friends back from the brink of death is easier than trying to bring himself back. There was a reason John had stayed numb all these years.
But he has to believe there was a point to sorting out all this emotional wreckage. A point to making to other side.
Even if Rodney isn't there waiting for him.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

91. Thought I heard a resurrection song by Majou [ - ] (2761 words)

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Section 16. Resurrection : Takes place during Season 5: episodes 3-8


Bringing his friends back from the brink of death is easier than trying to bring himself back. There was a reason John had stayed numb all these years.
But he has to believe there was a point to sorting out all this emotional wreckage. A point to making to other side.
Even if Rodney isn't there waiting for him.



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

92. May the best man win by Majou [ - ] (2682 words)

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Section 17. Rivalry: Takes place during Season 5: Episodes 9-14


Everything is a competition. The question is, who will win in the end?



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

93. I really regret-- You being here by Majou [ - ] (4020 words)

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Section 17. Rivalry: Takes place during Season 5: Episodes 9-14


Everything is a competition. The question is, who will win in the end?



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

94. Should have made a move by Majou [ - ] (3675 words)

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Section 17. Rivalry: Takes place during Season 5: Episodes 9-14


Everything is a competition. The question is, who will win in the end?



Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

95. You torture yourself everyday, John by Majou [ - ] (3909 words)

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Section 18. Gone: Takes place during Season 5: episodes 15-20


John's lip trembles as he whispers to himself, "So long, Rodney."

Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

96. If John doesn't care he'll date Jennifer by Majou [ - ] (4005 words)

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Section 18. Gone: Takes place during Season 5: episodes 15-20


John's lip trembles as he whispers to himself, "So long, Rodney."

Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

97. Earth under attack by Majou [ - ] (2884 words)

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Section 18. Gone: Takes place during Season 5: episodes 15-20


John's lip trembles as he whispers to himself, "So long, Rodney."

Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

98. Suicide run by Majou [ - ] (2831 words)

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Section 18. Gone: Takes place during Season 5: episodes 15-20


John's lip trembles as he whispers to himself, "So long, Rodney."

Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

99. Gone by Majou [ - ] (2187 words)

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Section 18. Gone: Takes place during Season 5: episodes 15-20


John's lip trembles as he whispers to himself, "So long, Rodney."
Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

100. He promised he would never leave me by Majou [ - ] (1767 words)

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Section 19. Trauma: Takes place after the end of the series


Rodney gives up everything in pursuit of John.
Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

101. The truth is I'm in love with you by Majou [ - ] (2841 words)

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Section 19. Trauma: Takes place after the end of the series


Rodney gives up everything in pursuit of John.
Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 10 Nov 2016

102. Trauma by Majou [ - ] (4600 words)

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Section 19. Trauma: Takes place after the end of the series
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WARNING!! Explicit violence! NON/CON! HURT/COMFORT. May squick.



Rodney gives up everything in pursuit of John.
Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 25 May 2017

103. The sound of another person being destroyed by Majou [ - ] (4364 words)

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Section 19. Trauma: Takes place after the end of the series
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WARNING!! Explicit violence! NON/CON! HURT/COMFORT. May squick.



Rodney gives up everything in pursuit of John.
Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 25 May 2017

104. Rescue by Majou [ - ] (3966 words)

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Section 20. Come Back to Me: Takes place after the end of the series

John tenderly and lovingly nurses Rodney back to health.
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Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 25 May 2017

105. Dignity's overrated by Majou [ - ] (5788 words)

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Section 20. Come Back to Me:

Takes place after the end of the series

John tenderly and lovingly nurses Rodney back to health.
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Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 26 May 2017

106. Come back to me by Majou [ - ] (6061 words)
Section 20. Come Back to Me:

Takes place after the end of the series

John tenderly and lovingly nurses Rodney back to health.
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Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 26 May 2017

107. There are some men that need killing by Majou [ - ] (5900 words)
Section 20. Come Back to Me:

Takes place after the end of the series

John tenderly and lovingly nurses Rodney back to health.
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Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 02 Feb 2017

108. Shower Do-Over by Majou [ - ] (2964 words)
Section 20. Redemption:

Takes place after the end of the series

"So, no redemption then?"
"I think there's redemption." Rodney squeezes John's hand.
"I'm such an idio-"
Rodney leans up and kisses the words away.

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Takes place after the end of the series.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 02 Feb 2017

109. I'll do what I want by Majou [ - ] (3269 words)
Section 20. Redemption:

Takes place after the end of the series

"So, no redemption then?"
"I think there's redemption." Rodney squeezes John's hand.
"I'm such an idio-"
Rodney leans up and kisses the words away.

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Takes place after the end of the series.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 03 Feb 2017

110. Hitting me isn't reward enough? by Majou [ - ] (2973 words)
Section 20. Redemption:

Takes place after the end of the series

"So, no redemption then?"
"I think there's redemption." Rodney squeezes John's hand.
"I'm such an idio-"
Rodney leans up and kisses the words away.

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Takes place after the end of the series.


Published: 10 Nov 2016 Updated: 03 Feb 2017

111. What are your intentions? by Majou [ - ] (3309 words)
Section 20. Redemption:

Takes place after the end of the series

"So, no redemption then?"
"I think there's redemption." Rodney squeezes John's hand.
"I'm such an idio-"
Rodney leans up and kisses the words away.

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Takes place after the end of the series.


Published: 11 Nov 2016 Updated: 03 Feb 2017

112. It's nothing, it's just-- I win by Majou [ - ] (2074 words)
Section 20. Redemption:

Takes place after the end of the series

"So, no redemption then?"
"I think there's redemption." Rodney squeezes John's hand.
"I'm such an idio-"
Rodney leans up and kisses the words away.

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Takes place after the end of the series.


Published: 11 Nov 2016 Updated: 03 Feb 2017

113. So much homoerotic tension, much kissing by Majou [ - ] (3369 words)


Section 21. Redemption:Takes place after the end of the series

"So, no redemption then?"
"I think there's redemption." Rodney squeezes John's hand.
"I'm such an idio-"
Rodney leans up and kisses the words away.

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Takes place after the end of the series.


Published: 11 Nov 2016 Updated: 03 Feb 2017

114. Is this a relationship? by Majou [ - ] (2762 words)


Section 22. Connection:Takes place after the end of the series


Takes place after the end of the series.

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John seeks vengeance against the men who hurt Rodney. And when he returns, there is sex to be had.
Finally!

Published: 11 Nov 2016 Updated: 03 Feb 2017

115. I just like saying your name by Majou [ - ] (2176 words)


Section 22. Connection:Takes place after the end of the series

John seeks vengeance against the men who hurt Rodney. And when he returns, there is sex to be had.
Finally!



Published: 11 Nov 2016 Updated: 03 Feb 2017

116. Like really, seriously in love by Majou [ - ] (2158 words)


Section 22. Connection:Takes place after the end of the series

John seeks vengeance against the men who hurt Rodney. And when he returns, there is sex to be had.
Finally!



Published: 11 Nov 2016 Updated: 04 Feb 2017

117. Dave was warned about the famous glare by Majou [ - ] (3816 words)


Section 22. Connection:Takes place after the end of the series

John seeks vengeance against the men who hurt Rodney. And when he returns, there is sex to be had.
Finally!

Published: 12 Nov 2016 Updated: 04 Feb 2017

118. Vala and Daniel uncover Rodney's secret by Majou [ - ] (2329 words)


Section 22. Connection: Takes place after the end of the series

John seeks vengeance against the men who hurt Rodney. And when he returns, there is sex to be had.
Finally!

Published: 04 Feb 2017 Updated: 04 Feb 2017

119. Rodney learns why John really left by Majou [ - ] (2115 words)


Section 22. Connection: Takes place after the end of the series

John seeks vengeance against the men who hurt Rodney. And when he returns, there is sex to be had.
Finally!

Published: 04 Feb 2017 Updated: 04 Feb 2017